Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.

I spent my life learning to feel less.
Everyday I felt less.

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, Johnathan Safran Foer

I spent my life learning to feel less.

Everyday I felt less.

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, Johnathan Safran Foer

Observe your own body. It breathes. You breathe when you are asleep, when you are no longer conscious of your own ideas of self-identity. Who, then, is breathing? The collection of information that you mistakenly think is you is not the protagonist in this drama called the breath. In fact, you are not breathing; breath is naturally happening to you. You can purposely end your own life, but you cannot purposely keep your own life going. The expression, ‘my life’ is actually an oxymoron, a result of ignorance and mistaken assumption. You don’t possess life; life expresses itself through you. Your body is a flower that life let bloom, a phenomenon created by life.

So I asked my father, your great-grandfather, whom I considered the best, most kindhearted man I knew, to write a letter to me. I told him it didn’t matter what he wrote about. Just write, I said. Write anything.

Darling,

You asked me to write you a letter, so I am writing you a letter. I do not know why I am writing you this letter, or what this letter is supposed to be about, but I am writing nonetheless, because I love you very much and trust that you have some good purpose for having me write this letter. I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.

Your father

The letter is the only thing of my father’s that I have left. Not even a picture.

To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.
The single biggest problem in communication is the illusion that it has taken place.

My name is Adrian and I
-Love Chemistry
-Am 21 years young
-Am inspired
-Exercise Science major in Undergrad
-DPT, Physical Therapy student
-<3 skateboards
-Like memes
-Enjoy Ecology
-Laugh at all of my own jokes
-Make music and go by the name of Elric
-Am a Pokemon master
-Wouldn't change anything